Unsettled

This isn't something I would normally blog about but I only have Dexter awake with me and I don't want to wake up my Monday friends so I guess that leaves this.

Pregnant dreams, while they can be just extraordinary, are sometimes just not very nice.  Now, I know this was just a dream but it was so real, the emotions were so real that since Dex woke me up I have been feeling really unsettled.

I won't go into too much detail because those of you that have heard my dreams before, they can get pretty weird and I remember every. single. detail.  In this dream I was trying to spend some time with Max and he blundered and made some sort of comment and I found out that he had been cheating on me with some girl named Breanna.  He had this whole other life figured out that I had no idea about.  He had moved us to a neighborhood that she lived near so it would be easier to balance the time between us.  I had asked him how he was spending any time at all with her since he is so busy and he told me that he doesn't play poker.  When he tells me he's going to a poker tournament, he's really going to be with Breanna. 

I was heartbroken.  I was so mad.  I just got up and left him there.  I ran and ran and ran until I found my Monday girls in some backyard and I broke down.  Even now thinking about it is getting me teared up.  And in no way, NO WAY would I ever think that Max would do this.  Ever.  But like I said, the dream was so real. 

I told them everything.  They were astonished that Max would do this.  Rachel was so mad.  Max had come to find me (who was watching Dexter I have no idea) and when he found me Rachel, RACHEL was so tongue-tied that she couldn't even piece together a sentence. 

This was just a dream.  I have to keep repeating that to myself.  I did wake up Max to love on me a bit and make sure that this was in fact a dream (of course it was, duh) but you know how you need reassurance after a scare like that.  I still am feeling quite unsettled though because of it.  I don't like these pregnant dreams sometimes. 

Maybe I'll feel better now.